Hi everyone and welcome! I'll be honest and
say that I'm a little surprised that I find myself wanting to blog, but
since becoming a mom just over 2 months ago, I feel like I constantly
have thoughts and ideas and things in my head that I want to write down
and remember (especially during 4am feedings!), and since I'm not really
a journaller (is that a word?) I thought this might work. It's also a
way of keeping our families and friends who live far away updated and in
the loop. We'll see how long it lasts!
I
feel like I need to first give an explanation as to this blog's title.
Those of you that know Spanish realize that I'm referring to my baby as
"my little creature", which may come across as a bit odd. Before Tessa
was born, her dad and I read a parenting
book
and in it, the author explains that the Spanish use the word "criatura"
to describe newborn babies, because initially they seem so helpless and
unprepared for life outside the womb. Once Tessa arrived and we had
spent a few hours watching her make her funny faces and noises and
jerky, uncoordinated movements, we found ourselves agreeing with this
comparison and began affectionately calling her our little creature. So
that's where the title comes from. It's in no way meant to be cold or
cruel, in fact, it's very much a term of endearment that we occasionally
use for our precious baby.
I thought a good place to start off would be with Tessa's birth story for those who haven't already heard it.
Tessa
was due to arrive on January 5, 2013. Our doctor had sent us for a
non-stress test that day and during the test I was having fairly regular
Braxton Hicks contractions. They continued for the next 2-3 days and
then stopped altogether. I had another non-stress test on January 9, and
during that test I didn't even register one contraction. So I was
mentally prepared to have to wait until our scheduled induction date of
January 14.
I
went home and carried on with my day. By supper time I was starting to
feel some mild cramping, but didn't really think much of it, as I had
already been having similar cramping on and off for about a week or two.
It was a Wednesday, and as he usually does on Wednesday evenings, Cam
went to play basketball. I was feeling restless and didn't want to sit
at home by myself, so I went to Walmart. I had a few things to pick up
and I also wanted to walk to try and get things moving. By the time I
got home around 8:30 the cramping was definitely getting worse, but was
still very manageable. I was able to time a few contractions at about
5-6 minutes apart by the time we went to bed. I fell asleep around 11
but woke up at about 2:30am with very regular (3-5 minutes), but what I
considered mild contractions. I knew I likely wasn't going to be able to
go back to sleep and I didn't want to wake Cam, so I went to the living
room and tried to get comfy on the couch so I could maybe doze off
again.
I'm
pretty sure I didn't sleep a wink the rest of the night. By 5am the
contractions were getting considerably more painful but still right
around 3-5 minutes apart. Cam got up around 7 since he was scheduled to
sub that day. We discussed whether or not he should go in or call and
cancel his day. I wasn't feeling the need to rush off to the hospital
just yet, but we decided that it was probably best if he stayed home
just in case. We were taking our time getting the last few things packed
(mostly because I was starting to have trouble walking during
contractions), and at about 9am I was in the bathroom grabbing my
toothbrush when I heard a small pop and felt a gush. Yep, my water
broke. I won't go into much more detail about that, but we kicked it
into high gear to get out the door to the hospital.
We
arrived and got all checked in and settled in the assessment room. My
contractions were coming fast and strong and I was having a tough time
relaxing and breathing through them. The nurse checked my cervix and
told me I was only at about 2-3 cm, so I figured were were in for a long
day ahead. We also discovered that there was some meconium (baby poo)
in my amniotic fluid, which meant that a team of NICU nurses had to be
present for the birth in case she had swallowed any and had trouble
breathing. They moved us to a labor room and the nurse started asking me
what I wanted to do about the pain. We had already decided ahead of
time that we wanted to try for a natural, medication-free birth if at
all possible. Being a nurse myself, I know that medications can be a
very good thing and they definitely have their place in labor &
delivery. I also know that sometimes things happen that are beyond our
control, and often interventions are necessary to save lives. At the end
of the day, my goal was to have a safe delivery and a healthy baby,
however that needed to happen. But a big part of me also wanted to be
able to fully experience the birth of my child, pain and all. Plus, the
idea of an epidural just weirds me out - not a fan of having a giant
needle stuck into my spine. So, we talked it over between us and with
the nurse, and I agreed on taking a dose of morphine. Within minutes of
getting the morphine, I was much more relaxed. It didn't touch the pain,
but I was able to rest and relax more between contractions, and breathe
a little easier through them.
Our
doctor showed up around 1pm and checked my cervix again. This time I
was at 5-6 cm. We figured I still had at least 4-5 hours to go (the
average dilation rate for a first time mom is about 1 cm/hour), so the
nurse started asking again about pain medication and this time she
brought up the "E" word. I agreed to a second dose of morphine, but in
the time it took the nurse to go get it and come back to our room, I
told her I felt like I needed to push (this was about 1:45pm). So she
quickly checked me again before giving the morphine. She told me I was
millimeters away from being fully dilated and had me roll onto my side
which allowed the last bit of dilation to happen. So in 45 minutes I
went from 5-6 cm to 10 cm and pushing. No time for more drugs or the
epidural, to my relief. I pushed for a little over an hour, and it would
have been quicker, but they had to get me to stop pushing for about 15
minutes (hardest thing EVER!) while we waited for the doctor to return
to deliver her. Tessa Mae made her grand entrance into this world at
2:58pm on Thursday, January 10, kicking and screaming, weighing in at
8lb 1oz. She checked out totally fine and got to hang out with dad for a
bit while the doctor stitched me up. The best feeling in the world was
having my brand new, beautiful baby girl placed on my chest and getting
to hold her in my arms for the first time.
From this:
To this:
We are so blessed!!
